When travelled is the road when time is spent on happenstance, and the grey bullfrog of knowledge is green with envy, you will know it's time to get therapy! Especially if any of this fluff makes any sense at all!

My work is made up of individuals who have no life outside of the corporate environment. They owe their souls to the corporate machiene, and the really sick part is they are happy about it.

I find myself sourrounded by people who have a "corporate disease" that saps the lifeblood out of those around like me who have priorities that fit outside of the mundane. They have attitudes of "I don't care what it takes, who is hurt, when I decide to do things, or what anyone else's plans may be - as lomg as the work gets done". I've seenit too many times to remember. Heaven forbid I ask the obvious question, "when did you know it needed to be done today?". No, cantask that because that would expose the flaw, and people might have to take resposibility for waiting until the last minute, instead of laying it all on people like me who have the resposibility of completing on time reguardless of what that "left over" time is.

Its more than aggrivating the lack of consideration and concern. Its amazing!

Well, we met with my parents and all seems to be going well. It was quite enjoyable to see them again. They are looking old. My mother especially. She has diabetes now. Thus another reason I am wanting to loose the weight I have. That is one major thing I don't want to follow in her footstep on. The other is her overall health. I don't want to detereorate like hers has. Its sad to see. Anyway, it was good to see them. I wonder if we will have true restoration or not. Only time will tel that.

I contated my parents today. It's been over a year since we last communicated in any way. It was through email and the respose was encoraging. We'll see what happens from here, at least it's a start.

God has been dealing with me a lot of late on my forgiveness issues. As you already saw from my previous entry.

I want restoration, but I don't want to rehash the past. There's no point, it would only cause problems. I just need to learn, put boundaries where necessary and then move on.

With God's help I will.

There are times when I sit and wonder at the grace God has given me on a daily basis. Then it hits me how often I want so much justice ti be served here or there, all the while expecting gace for myself. Not onece considering that I too deserve the ultimate justice that is held at bay by an incredible sacrafice that I don't deserve.

How amangly hipocritical that is!